Little Shop of Horrors

Right now I'm in Nelson visiting family. My grandparents, my aunt and uncle, my cousins, my cousins' grandma, and my immediate family are here. Yesterday my Uncle Patrick, Katrina, and Ryan were here, but they had to leave because Katrina had to work on New Years.

I have homework that I haven't done yet and I really don't want to. I really should but I just can't find the motivation. Maybe I just won't do it. XD Or I'll copy my friends. :DD

Right now I'm watching Little Shop of Horrors. It's really quite hilarious. Bill Murray and Steve Martin work really well together! OMG LMAO THIS IS AWESOME.

I would write more but I have got to go watch this now.

Christmas Gifts!

Goals I've completed:
31. Get a new phone
42. Make shortbread cookies
54. Moisturize every night before bed.
58. Get new glasses

Here's a list of everything I got for Christmas:

Stocking
-decorative mask
-craisins
-purse holders
-3 pairs of socks
-gum
-insta-cloths
-chocolate
-smarties
-corn nuts
-bueno chocolate bar
-little treats chocolate bars
-thong???
-earrings
-chocolate elf
-facial cleansing wipes
-dove body wash
-tweezers with a led light
-hershey's bliss
-gummies
-butterfingers
-candy canes
-body lotion
-chocolate egg
-chapstick
-large beauty bag
-mini clinique moisturizing lotion
-clinique rise-off eye makeup solvent
-clinique eye shadow
-$1.25???

Erik
-How to Train Your Dragon

Jessica
-"Fang" by James Patterson
-ring

Mom
-dressy black top
-St.Ives cleansing cloths
-St.Ives apricot cleanser
-St.Ives advanced body moisturizer
-St.Ives apricot scrub
-shower scrubber
-blue cellphone case
-samsung corby pro cellphone!!!!

Dad
-Inkheart
-Harry Potter t-shirt
-red chinese shirt
-dragon and phoenix woodcraft construction kit
-6 mini fruit scents shower gels
-6 mini fruit scents body lotions
-Scott Pilgrim vs. the World

Santa
-chinese paints
-chinese ink set

:DDDDDDDDDD

Okayness and Christmas

My dad waited in the waiting room for 4 hours and wasn't seen by a doctor, so he just left. He was feeling better anyway. He still gets some dizzy spells so he went to see a doctor yesterday, who said he seems completely fine so just wait and see what happens. Yeah, that's the way to go. >.<

IT'S CHRISTMAS TIMMMEEEEE!!!!!. Omg, I'm so excited!!! Christmas is my most favouritest holiday everrr. The tree is up, the presents are under it, the lights are shining, the carols are playing, the snow is nonexistent. YESSSSSS. AWESOME. We're staying home for Christmas this year again and my mom and sister are going to join us.
The tree is fake. D:

Random Alert!
Enrique Iglesias = Fuckin' sexy!
Robert Downey Jr. = Wayyyy sexier.

I'm all done my Christmas shopping! I just need to get a birthday present for my mom. I'll get it tomorrow. I've got Christmas gifts for my dad, my mom, my sis, my bro, Steph, Christine, and Anne. :DDD Not sure when I'll see my friends so I can give it to them though. Anne, let me know when I'll possibly see you! I'm hopefully getting a new cellphone from my mom for Christmas. I have to pay for the unlimited texting though. :( I need a job!!!!

Tomorrow I'm going for my eye exam! Then I'll get my new prescription and they'll I'll get my new glasses!!!! FINALLY.

Random Alert!
-Right now I'm wearing a Santa hat. :) Here's a picture!



-Woah... I've got boobage in that picture. :S HAHA COOL.
-I'mmmm dreaminggg of a greeeeeen Christmaaaaas.
-They played a new Tokio Hotel music video on Much!!! SWEET.
-I saw a new music video called Bass Down Low (love the song btw) by Dev ft. Cataracs. I saw Cataracs' face. NOOOOOO. It ruined my whole image of her! PUT YOUR SUNGLASSES BACK ON!!! Dammit. Stay the way you were in Like a G6 forever.
-Deadmau5 is cool.

For New Years, Erik, my dad, and I are going to Nelson to visit family there. Should be cooooollll.

MEGA RETARD BLOG FTW.

Be Okay

So I was in P.E. class, about to get ready to dance because we're in the dance unit right now, and then one of the teachers called me over to talk to me. She then pointed me in the direction of Mr. Breen, the principal. So I went over to Mr. Breen and he took me outside of the gym into the cool air where he told me that my dad is in the hospital.

I don't remember everything that he said, just the most important points. He said that my dad had gone to the office saying that he didn't feel very good and he felt a kind of pressure in the side of his head. So they took it seriously and an ambulance came to take my dad to Surrey Memorial Hospital. He said he didn't think it was serious. Mr. Breen also mentioned something about my dad's diabetes, but I don't quite remember anything else. Although he talked to me for like 3 minutes.

Eventually, he dismissed me and I headed back inside. I went on with my class, pretending that nothing had happened. I felt kind of numb actually. I'm not really sure what to think. I just hope my dad's okay.

Disappointed

Honesty is a two way street, right? So is trust.

The only things that I don't tell Anne are things that I haven't told anyone and are not even a big deal. They're uninteresting and unimportant to everyone so I don't see a point in telling.

I dunno. I guess I see our relationship differently than she does? Because I tell her everything that's big and important. Especially things that are related to her.

I just wish she would do the same.

Sunday...

When I woke up on Sunday, I texted Zach saying, "Christine told me you thought I was dodging you all night last night?" He replied with, "Yeah, it felt that way..." Then I said, "Well, I just want you to know that I don't want to be anything more than friends right now." I really meant never ever but I thought I would be nice. Then he said, "Ok." So that's pretty much it. Chyea.

My mom picked me up from Steph's eventually and took me home. She then left. After a while, my dad got home. When he walked in the door, I said hi. Then he said, "So you slept over at Steph's." It wasn't really a question, but I was like WTF. HOW DOES HE KNOW?! So I said, "Who told you?" And he said my mom did. He then went into my closet, took my grad dress, got into the car, and left.

Fuck.

When he got home, he went on the computer and cancelled my cellphone.

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Really? All of that just for sleeping over at my friend's house? I don't even have words to explain how I feel about this. Does he not care if I grow up to resent him? Because that's what's happening. As if I'm ever going to visit him when I move out. He can go suck a dick. And how does he expect to control me now? He can no longer threaten me with returning my grad dress. He can no longer take my phone away. And if he doesn't let me on the computer, I can always use my ipod. He's just as fucking stupid as my mom is. Except my mom is just ignorant. My dad... he's mentally fucking retarded.

Saturday

So on Saturday night, I went to Cat's going away party with Stephanie and Christine. We bused there with Cat and Mark. When we got there, it was crowded and kind of really lame. The best part of the party was the little kittens that were lying in their bed. They were so cute. I swear I was going to steal a couple.

A few hours into the party, Vojtek arrive. I hadn't seen him since the party at the sand dunes. But guess who came with him? The police. Apparently, when someone was being picked up, their parent called the police because of the noise. So lame. So the police arrived exactly when Vojtek did and they opened the front door and demanded that we all go home unless we wanted to be charged with possession because he could smell marijuana. Then one of the owners of the house said that anyone who was under 19 or who didn't have ID had to leave. So Steph and I started grabbing our coats, but then the other owner of the house told us not to leave. He said that the police couldn't legally come into the house without a warrant, so we were okay. But we did turn the music off. After watching the police skulk around in the backyard for a while, they left and we turned the music back on. Luckily, they didn't return for the rest of the night because they said that if they did, then the owners of the house would get a $1000 fine.

At about midnight, Zach arrived at the party. I had been sitting on the couch talking to Jake and petting a kitty when he got there. He ran up to me and was like, "Hey, Raven!" I was just like, "...Hey." Jake left at that point. I don't know why, but for some reason Zach was bothering me. I think it may have been because he was trying to hold me and get all close to me as if we were together. Um... definitely not together, buddy! So I seized the first opportunity to get away from him, which was when he asked for a hit from someone's pipe. I hurried away to where Christine and Jake were. Turns out Jake doesn't like drugs either. Anyway, for the rest of the night I was kind of avoiding Zach. He was being annoying and I just wanted him to be gone. Eventually, he seemed to catch on and went to hang out with some other people. THANK GOD.

Christine told me later that Zach said to her that I've been dodging him all night. Christine said, "Then are you guys just friends?" because she knew that I didn't want to be anything more than friends with him. Unfortunately, I may have sent some of the wrong signals. But when she said that, Zach said he didn't know. Did he actually think we were more than friends already? We had only hung out like twice. And that kiss was obviously a mistake if he thought it made us more than friends. I feel stupid.

Near around 2:00am, most of the people were gone (including Zach and Cat), but Lucas, Jake, and Jacob were still there. There was also a girl named Raven there who we think was a tranny. She had no boobs and no waist. She also had really big hands and wide shoulders and was quite tall. But she had a face that looked like a girl's. And a voice that was a girl's... I still think she was a man though. Everyone else did too. And Steph said that she was for sure. I don't know how she knew though. Also, one of the owners of the house was passed out on an armchair and a couple of guys carried him to his room. It was funny.

Well, Steph went and cuddled on an armchair with Jacob. Christine was with Lucas and I was with Jake. It was kind of funny how that worked out. Christine ended up making out with Lucas right beside where Jake and I were. I was like gaping and laughing while Jake would say, "That's awesome," and then look at me expectantly. But I wasn't going to kiss him. He has a girlfriend! Bad boy. And I am NOT a fan of the PDA. But apparently Lucas was. HAHA. He didn't want to let go of Christine! It was so awkward. At one point, Jake tried to take me elsewhere but I was like nuuuuu. Also Lucas was stroking my hair at one time and Jake was like, "Mine!" and pulled me away. I was cracking up.

When Steph and Christine and I had decided the party was over, we were talking about calling a cab. The boys were like, "No! We're not done yet!" LOL. Steph went and called one anyways. Then when the cab arrived, Steph started making out with Jacob and Christine started making out with Lucas and I was just like, "AHHHHH!!!!" Poor Jake ahaha. Too bad I'm not bad. He picked me up in his arms and carried me to the front door, where I asked him to put me down because I kind of felt like I was being handled... like a child. But I know he didn't mean it like that. Anyway, Steph and Christine and I got into the cab and the boys walked off together in the other direction.

So we went back to Steph's house talking about everything along the way. The cabby must have enjoyed himself. We were pretty interesting aha. My dad had said I couldn't sleep over at Steph's house. He told me because he didn't want me out two nights in a row. But I was think that that's fucking stupid because he's always telling me to get out of his house anyway. So why in the hell would I want to stay there? I told him I was going to stay at my mom's place and she lied to him for me, saying that I was going to. But my mom said to me that my dad told her that he was actually not letting me stay at Steph's because he thought I was going to actually sneak off with some guy named Adam who used to date Anne. Um... who the hell is Adam? W...T...F. He's so DAMN STUPID. GAWD. And he had no reason not to trust me! I had never lied to him before about going out with people. GRRRRRRRRRRR. Idiot. So I slept over at Steph's anyway. Ahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Friday

Ahhh, so much to blog. Let's start on Friday then I guess.

After school, I went to meet Anne at Surrey Central. The lucky biotch didn't have any school that day. I waited in Starbucks for like half an hour, reading the newspaper. She wasn't late, I just got there really early. She arrived with Cat eventually and Steph showed up also. We just chilled at the Starbucks for a while, then we headed in separate directions. Cat and Steph left to do something... I don't remember what. And Anne and I went to look at clothes and shoes. I didn't buy anything, but Anne bought a coat and a purse.

Anne had to leave then. Steph and Cat and I bused to Steph's bank where she cashed her paycheck. From there, we walked to my house and I packed all of my stuff to sleep over at Christine's. We then bused to Guildford to buy some hair dye for Cat. We got it and then walked to the house of some guy named Reese to pick up Cat's sweater, which she left there. We walked to McDonald's after and bought some fries and I got a free coffee. We then left to Guildford again and met Christine in the liquor store. She and Cat both bought some alcohol. Cat booted for Steph and I, getting us an 8 pack of Alexander Keith's that we were going to share. Best beer ever. From there, Cat had to leave to do some packing because she was going to Golden for 5 months to work at a ski resort on Sunday.

So then Steph and Christine and I walked to Christine's house and the first thing we did was shotgun a beer. It was the first time I had shotgunned a beer, but it was pretty easy. Steph texted Cory telling him that I had just shotgunned my first beer and he said I'm a tank. Ahaha. We then put a pizza in the oven and did a tequila shot. When the pizza was ready, we sat down on the floor and turned off the lights. We lit some candles and ate our pizza. :DD It was a really awesome dinner and we were just starting to feel the alcohol so t'was good. We also played with matches by putting them out with our tongues. :P

I did a vodka shot, Christine did a tequila shot, and Steph chugged a beer. We were then checking our Facebook and I started ranting about Talon and how awesome he is. So we went on my Facebook and I showed him to Steph and Christine. Steph knows who he is apparently. Then we checked if he was online and he was totally on Facebook chat! So Steph and Christine basically elbowed me out of the way and started messaging him. I don't remember exactly what they were saying but I know he was being really awesome. They were inviting him over and asking what he was doing home on a Friday night. He really contributed to the conversation. He answered my (their) questions and asked me (them) questions too. I really like that about him. :) Because we're not even really friends but he was talking to me (them) like we were. Eventually, Oliver, Gage, Riley, and Nick all came over so I logged off of Facebook and we did more drinking and played with matches some more. We played two games of Twister! After a while, Oliver left. Gage, Riley, Christine, and I went into the bathroom and found Christine's parents 10-year-old marijuana! They smoked it while I hid from the smoke in the shower. We accidentally ditched Nick outside of the bathroom and he went home. Ahahahaaa oops. After they all got high, we went and played with matches some more and Gage left after a while. He left Riley with us. He must have been hoping Riley would get laid. LOL. So we made some more pizza. This time it was a bacon cheeseburger pizza. It actually tasted like bacon cheeseburger. It was amazing. While Christine was cutting hers, she sliced her finger open and it bled quite a bit. I went and got a bandage and Riley put it on her. We then ended up drawing all over eachother. It was so funny. I was too tired after a while so I ended up going to bed at like 3am. My head fell asleep as soon as it hit the pillow.

Le Gasp!

Yesterday at around 3:45pm, I met Cat, Mark (her boyfriend), Amanda (Marks's bff), and Kevin (a friend of Amanda's) at the roller hockey place near Surrey Central. From there, we went to Holland Park, where Mark, Amanda, and Kevin had a snowball fight while Cat and I chatted and laughed at whoever got a snowball in the face. After a little while, everyone but Cat and I were really cold so we headed to McDonald's to warm up with some free coffee. I had just had a coffee, so I told Cat not to get me one, but she got me one anyway. XD She also got some fries for us. At 4:50, I left because I had to babysit at 5:00.

When I got there, Rory and I looked at her school planner for a while and then played with her musical instruments until dinner. We made mini pizzas and then I plopped her in front of the tv while she ate. While she was watching tv, I called my mom to tell her about my plans for the night.

I told her that I was working until 11 and then Zach would pick me up. We would then drive out to Cloverdale to Amanda's house (random fact: Cat told me Zach has had sex with Amanda). We would chill there until 1:00am and then Zach would drive me back to my mom's place. My mom agreed to the plan. I then had to talk to Zach, who I had been texting earlier about the plan to confirm everything. He confirmed easily enough.

So at 8, I put Rory to bed and went and napped for an hour. So I basically lay on the couch and napped/watched tv until 11. Which came and went. Zach was waiting for me in Steph's parking lot, which is across the street, but Rory's parents weren't home yet. I called them at around 11:20 and they said they were only just leaving and it would take them around 20 minutes to get back. It took them 30 minutes of course. But I got $60 and a painting that they didn't want. I then hurried to Zach and we sped off towards Cloverdale.

We got there at 12:16 and walked in on everyone playing Stripopoly. Cat was the only one fully clothed. XD Mark made me a drink with 10% Jack Daniel's and 90% Coke, but it tasted like ass so I gave it back to him. Amanda let me have the second half of her beer. She's really nice even though I don't know her very well.

We didn't do much there but we still lost track of time. It was a little before 1:30am before we noticed what time it was. We left then and Zach drove me back to my mom's place. We got kind of lost because both of us are really bad with directions. Luckily, he used the GPS app he has on his iPhone.

We finally made it a little after 2:00. He turned off his car and said he wanted to get out to give me a proper hug. I kind of had an idea of what was coming. So he walked over to my side of the car and we hugged. Then, not letting go, I looked up at him and he looked down at me and then our lips just kind of connected. Next thing I know, we're making out right in front of my mom's place. This was the first time I've made out sober, but it was kind of the same as being drunk anyway. The only thing I was aware of was how his mouth felt on mine. Not where my hands were, where his hands were, or how cold it was. To be honest, he wasn't an amazing kisser, but I don't think I was really great either so whatever. :P I pulled away after like 10 seconds because of many reasons actually, including 1)We were right in front of where my mom lived, 2) There was someone outside earlier so he might have still been around (I'm not a fan of the PDA apparently), 3) I was already late, and 4) I kind of wanted to seem like a bit of a mystery still. ;P

Zach then smiled at me and asked when I was free next. I shrugged and laughed a little, looking down. He put his forehead against mine, and that's when I said, "I'm already late," because I knew he wanted to kiss me again. He immediately let go, apologizing. I said a quick bye and then hurried off.

I can't really describe how I felt afterwards... I wasn't elated or euphoric at all. I actually felt kind of depressed. Why? I have no idea. Like I literally can't think of any reason why I'd be sad at all. Maybe my period's coming and I'm having mood swings or something. XD

Tip Me!

Goals decided to take out:
3. Hang out with Nanlar.
10. Work on art piece for Erik
11. Work on CD for Erik
39. Buy voodoo doll for phone

Goals I've completed:
22. Get Kingdom Hearts II to start working somehow

:DD
Wow! I haven't blogged in like a bazillion trillion years!

So what's new? Uh... I had a four day weekend last week! It was great. My dad, my brother, and I all went to Salmon Arm to visit my grandparents. My cousins, Shannon and Daniel, were there also with their parents. It was really fun. We did all sorts of things, like going to see my Granddad curl, going to the mall, going swimming, and filming a murder mystery.

And this weekend, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part I comes out in the theatres! OMFG I'M SO FACKING EXCITED!!!!! I'm going with a new friend of mine. His name is Zach. I met him at a party. XD He's really nice though. And he has this amazing huge black truck which I adore. It took a long time, but I finally convinced my mom to let me go alone with him. My dad won't know though. He's way too paranoid.

Anyway, I'm really hungry so I'm gonna go eat now! Yumyuminmytum.

Actual Blog

Long time no blog!

On Sunday, I hung out with my friend Hailey. We only became friends since the start of this year. I mean, I knew her, but we weren't exactly "friends." More like acquaintances. She just got her N recently, so she picked me up from my house at 11am in her brother's old Nissan Pathfinder and drove us to Opus in Langley. Opus is an art store. It's so amazing in there. There is so much art stuff. Hailey bought 5 canvasses and two paintbrushes. I bought a new sketchbook (100% recycled paper!) and new art pencils (made from recycled newspaper!). I am so environmentally-friendly. We then drove to Willowbrook mall where we bought lunch from A&W. We then went to Coles and I bought a book for Erik's birthday tomorrow! Hopefully he doesn't read this before then... We then drove to the Value Village in Newton because I needed to buy some red stockings for my Velma costume. I met her mom there. I couldn't find any stockings but I did find the Maximum Ride book I was looking for, the Final Warning. So I bought that and then we headed to the Superstore because Hailey wanted to buy new running shorts. Unfortunately, they were out of running shorts so we left for Guildford mall because I needed to get some makeup from Wal-Mart. I bought some makeup powder and facewash and Hailey stole 3 bottles of nailpolish. She was sneaky. We both tried on bras and I bought a new one. It's brown with black lace and is size 34 B! I'm usually an A so it was kind of strange. Maybe the bra is just small. So then Hailey drove me home because it was around 4:30 at that point and I had to go to church at 5. I spent over $70! Holy damn. I shouldn't be allowed a debit card. XD

Yesterday was pajama day at school, so I wore my blue pajama bottoms with stars on them. Today was tight and bright day, so I wore yellow leggings, a black skirt, and a yellow and black layered top. Everyone was saying I looked like a bumble bee. Even people I don't normally talk to. Ahaha. Tomorrow is nerd day. I just know I'm going to wear my 3D movie glasses and suspenders. I need to come up with the rest of my outfit.

In math class today, we had a substitute who was like Russian or something and she was old. She kept coming over to Pardeep, Jen, and I, trying to help. But she was just kind of annoying. We laughed a lot during that class. And spent half an hour trying to figure out one question, but in vain.

Today after school, I went to the gym with Hailey and did score-keeping for one of the volleyball games that was happening. Learning how to do it properly was a pain, but it was fine. The guy organizing it, named Michael, is really really friendly and nice. I like him a lot. I had to do this to get some leadership hours for my P.E. class. We need to get 5 hours before November 18. And right now I have... two. :DD

Flying Balls

Goals I've completed:
15. Update iPod
26. Spend less money

And I've decided to take out a lot of them:
5. Hang out with Vojtek
6. Hang out with Brandon
25. Plan sleepover for Squirettes with Anne
30. Convince Dad to give me an allowance
32. Get Michael's number
37. Get curling iron from Mom
41. Practice diving
57. Make art for AE


Wow, I haven't blogged in almost two weeks! Jeez, it hasn't felt that long. And to think I used to blog every day. :P

So today in P.E. class, this guy named Lucas hit a volleyball and it hit me in the face. Okay, yes, you could be thinking that sometimes it happens. And it's happened to you, too, so whatever. But wait! This guy, Lucas, is RIPPED. Okay? This motherfucker is stroonnnggg. And he's a volleyball player. So he smashed this volleyball and it hit me in the face within half a second of him hitting it. It hit me right in the center of my face and I was thrown back by the force. I didn't fall but my head flew to the left. And there I stood, clutching my face. The thing is, though, it didn't hurt. Like... at all. But I started tearing up. I have no idea why. Maybe it was the shock? Maybe the ball hit my tear ducts? Maybe I was just embarrassed? Or maybe it was a combination of all three? So everyone in my P.E. class saw my teary eyes. And everyone on my team ran up to me and were like, "Are you okay????" The first person I heard was The-Kiet (pronounced like ticket). He's really nice. I like him. Anyway, all of the people made me tear up more. And it always does. Sigh. I was so embarrassed. Mr. Vandop came up to me and asked if I was okay and if I wanted to go sit down. So I went and sat down and Vanessa, a really nice girl, dashed up to me and cried, "Are you okay???" I choked out that I was. I was still teary, so Vandop said I could go to the bathroom if I wanted. So I did until I wasn't teary anymore. When I came back out, Lucas apologised. He said he felt like crap. It was kind of cute. :P

GSA

Yesterday I went to the Gay Straight Alliance meeting at my school at 3:00. I went with Tas and we were the only grade 12s there. There was about 17 people there, including 3 adults. One of which was Mrs. Brazzil. FML. Haha, no it's actually okay. I'm over it. Although I did flip Erik the bird today when I saw him heading to the theatre after school. He laughed. He's still there actually. There was only one boy who was a student. Anyway, the first thing we did at the meeting was find a "thumb buddy." This meant we had to go around and look at people's thumbs and try to find one that was similar in some way to our own thumb. I found a girl who was in grade 9 and her thumb was pink like mine so we became thumb buddies. Her name was Janitah and I think she was a lesbian? Maybe. Or bi. I know she wasn't straight though. You'll find out later on. And then we had to find out two things we had in common and something you wouldn't know about ourselves just by seeing us. We had many things in common, such as liking manga, having dyed our hair red in grade 9, liking spanish, etc. After a while, Mr. Blenman (our gay wrestling coach) rolled out two long and thick pieces of paper. He then tossed out markers onto the paper that were rainbow coloured. :P We were then supposed to write why we were there and what we wanted to see happen during the year. I wrote "I'm here because I want to support the gay, lesbian, bi, and transexual community in our school. They deserve to be just as happy as anyone else and the bullying and discrimination is unacceptable. Advocacy!" or something along those lines. I then wrote "Love knows no boundaries." Mrs. Brazzil came over and wrote "Absolutely" with an arrow pointing to my writing. Janitah wrote something like this: "I'm here because I want to find support for gays and for myself." Which is why I don't think she's completely straight. We then went around and introduced ourselves, something we liked to do, that one thing no one would know about us just by seeing us, and a little something extra. On my turn I said, "My name's Raven. I love reading, writing, and drawing. Something you wouldn't know just by looking at me is that I'm half Mexican. Haha, yeah, my mother was born and raised in Mexico. And I'm ashamed to say that I used to be quite homophobic because my parents are severely homophobic. But that changed when I found out my sister was gay. So that's what changed me!" When I said I was half Mexican, about half the people in the room were like, "What?", "No way!", "You're kidding!" Aha, is it really that hard to see? LOL. There was one bisexual girl, three pansexual girls, and one transexual male. Then afterwards we all went around in a circle and said everyone's name to learn them. Afterwards we had pizza and pop! It was delish! I ate three pieces. XD Then it was 4:30 and I went home because it was over. :P So I'm glad I went and I'm looking forward to the next one.

Theatre Is For Losers

Goals I've completed:
9. Work on art piece for Nanlar

So on Thursday, the actors for Theatre Company were chosen. And I wasn't one of them. Like I seriously do not understand what I did wrong. What the fuck. Erik got in. Good for him, but... what? Okay, I'm not being vain or cocky or anything, but I was good. My monologue was so good it was freaky, according to Erik. And during callbacks, Erik told me I was the only one in my group who wasn't just standing there looking bored. I was actually acting. And when we did the radio programs, I read perfectly with NO stumbling! Something just isn't right. My friend Candice got in. No offense to her, but she just wasn't as good as me. I seriously owned. I did so good. Erik asked Mrs. Brazzill why I didn't get in and apparently I didn't project my voice and I just wasn't physically developed enough as an actor. Um... what the fucking hell? It seriously isn't hard to learn to project your voice. Tell me once that I'm too quiet and then I'll be the loudest fucking person in Theatre Company if you want me to. But all of my friends told me they heard me perfectly fine. Excuse me if I wasn't screaming. And no one else was louder than me! And I'm not physically developed enough as an actor?? What the hell does that even mean?! I can act, bitch! I did my monologue for Erik and he said it was so real it freaked him out! And he doesn't lie to me to make me feel good because he doesn't give a shit about my feelings. So he was telling the truth. And I did it the exact same during my audition. Also, my cousins have told me before that I'm a great actor when we used to make movies together. Every one of my friends in Theatre Company is seriously confused. Also, I was the only grade 12 who auditioned who didn't get in. My friend Crystal was telling me that even if I sucked, it just wasn't right to not let me in. Candice's jaw was on the floor when she found out I didn't make it. Man, I'm seriously pissed. And everyone keeps telling me to go talk to Mrs. Brazzill. But what for? What am I supposed to say? "Hi, Mrs. Brazzill. I just wanted to tell you I think you're a stupid asshole for not letting me in Theatre Company. And I think I did good. So let me in, you whore." Haha, no thanks. I'd probably end up slapping her. And besides, I don't want to be in Theatre Company if that's how that bitch runs things. I think she didn't pick me simply because she didn't know me. I can act better than half of the people who were in Theatre Company last year and she chose them all again. She also chose everyone who was in her damn acting or drama classes. Uh, hello?? UNFAIR MUCH. Gawd. And apparently my dad went to talk to her and she said I just wasn't good enough. And what did he say? "Raven can't be good at everything." ...FUCK YOU, DAD. I WAS GOOD. She's just a biased bitch! And seriously, if you think I'm just being a sore loser, then FUCK YOU TOO. Because if I knew I wasn't good, I would accept it! Like I accept everything else I'm not good at. Like sports! I know I suck, but whatever. But I was damn good! And that's why I'm not okay with this bullshit! FUCK YOU, MRS. BRAZZILL. GO DIE IN A HOLE. I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO THEATRE COMPANY. YOU RUINED MY LAST YEAR AT HIGH SCHOOL. THANKS FOR THE CHANCE, BITCH.

Grouse Grind

Today at school I had a field trip with my P.E. class. We did the Grouse Grind! And it was the hardest thing that I've ever done in my entire life. Climbing that mountain was tough, man! Wow, I climbed a mountain. That sounds cool. :P Anyway, it was also the most I've ever sweated in my whole life. It was nasty. It was dripping down my face, my chest, and my back. It would drip into my eyes, which was annoying. And whenever I whiped my forehead with my head and whipped my hand at the ground, the sweat would splatter because there was so much of it! Ewww. I'm definitely showering tonight. It took me 1 hour and 8 minutes to complete the trail, which was, apparently, a really good time. ;D Go me! IT was harddd though. Also, I started foaming at the mouth! T'was insane! I better be uber toned tomorrow with massive quads. When I reached the top though, since my body had released so many endorphins (the happy chemical) from exercising, I felt so good! It was awesome. And I was totally proud of myself. I'll add some pictures to this blog eventually. Just not now because I have a lot of other stuff I need to do, like my math homework, my photography project, and Nanlar's birthday present.
SO PCE.

Complaints

Goals I've completed:
12. Hang out with Christine
48. See The Other Guys

So apparently I have a pinched nerve in my neck. It hurts like a motherfucker to turn it to the right. I have no idea how it happened. One second I was getting changed in my bedroom, and the next second I try to turn my head and almost scream from the pain. I told both my dad and Anne and got different advice from each. I tried pills, massaging, leaning to the left, massaging, a hot water bottle, and massaging. Now I'm going to wait for Jess to get out of the shower and ask her to use my dad's massage unit to massage my neck, shoulders, and spine. Hurry up, Jess!

I'm still sick, too. I'm not having a very good day so far. XD Ugh and it sucks because I can't take my Buckley's cold pills and pain pills at the same time, or so it says on the Buckley's box. But the pains pills don't seem to be working anyway. So I'll take the cold pills next time. *sniff, sniff*

Tomorrow is callbacks. I'm pretty excited. I just hope my fucking neck is better by then! If it's not, I'll snap it myself. Ahaaaa, just kidding. But seriously. STOP HURTING.

This morning (before my neck started hurting), I took my second picture for my series of pictures of the 7 Deadly Sins. Today was envy. I wore a green dress and green makeup and had a rubber snake wrapped around my arm. It's now my Facebook profile picture.

Man, I'm cold. I think I'll go put on some pants and a sweater. XD It looked bright this morning so I put on a tank and a skirt. Now it's all gray and rainy-ish. *quickly changes into ugly black sweatpants, black, pink, and gray socks, and a white sweater* I have no idea why I was so descriptive there.

On Wednesday, I'm going to be doing the Grouse Grind as a field trip in my P.E. class. I've heard from a few people that it's quite difficult. So I'm kind of looking forward to it but at the same time I'm nervous. I'm excited for the ride down the mountain in the gondola! Yay! Ahaha.

HURRY UP AND GET OUT OF THE SHOWER, JESS. I NEED MY NECK MASSAGED. NOWWWW.

I'm hungry. I should eat lunch soon. For breakfast I ate Lucky Charms. I love them. They are soooo gooooddd. Good thing the box is huge because I've been eating them every morning and night.

My neck is seriously pissing me off. Like what the FUCK?! *shoots neck* BLAM. Take that, you whore! Oh, shit. *dies*

Sick

I'm sick. :(

Callbacks!

Today the callback sheet for theatre was posted! And guess what? I MADE IT! YAYYYYYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYYAYAYYAYAYAYAYIPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So on the 28th, I'll be heading to the theatre to do callbacks. ;) Erik and Tanner and Candice all made it too. SWEET. I hope I ace the callbacks. It sounds pretty easy... YAY. This must have meant that my monologue was good! Because there were like 20-30 people on the callback list out of 70! So I must have done well. :) Which means I can act? YEEHEEHEE. I'M SO EXCITED, IF YOU CAN'T TELL.
I got to play volleyball on Talon's team in P.E. today. He was so cute... I think I saw him looking at me? I probably imagined it, but whateverr. X3
I sound sooo full of myself in these blogs. I should stop talking about boys. Tas called me a slut today. :( That must mean I should stop.

Audition!

I forgot to talk about my theatre company audition that I did on Tuesday!
I'm gonna make this quick though because I'm really hungry so I want to go eat something. So here we go!
So right after school I went to the theatre and Crystal, Candice, Ashley, Tanner, and Erik were there. Then we did this warm-up thing where we stretched and warmed up our voices and stuff like that. It was pretty neat. I did feel wayy more relaxed after that. Then everyone who was there (around 15 people) went into the back room and waited for our turn to do our monologues. I was like the 11th person to go I think... It was so late. XD So when I went out onto the stage, Mrs. Brazzill and two other girls were sitting in the audience seats. The two other girls were like the stage managers or whatever. So this is how it went down:
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: So what are you going to be doing for us today?
ME: Um... a monologue? Haha.
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Why does everyone say that?! *little lols* What's it called?
ME: Betrayal.
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Okay then. On you're own time.
ME: *cough, cough* *does monologue, forgets one part for a little bit but remembers fairly quickly, has good emotion like quavering voice, moves around a bit* *bows when finished*
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Good. Now could you read this sonnet by Shakespeare? It's about blahblahblah.
ME: Sure! *reads perfectly with emotion*
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Very nice. You're very good at reading Shakespearean language.
ME: Thanks. :3
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Now if you had a circus, what would you call it?
ME: Cirque du Awesome.
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Okay so we want you to prance in a circle and introduce us to your circus and tell us what we'll be seeing in it today! Go!
ME: *runs in circle* Welcome, Ladies and Gentlemen, to Cirque du Awesome! Today you'll be seeing the elephants, the clowns, and the tightrope walkers! I hope you enjoy the show! *bows*
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Very good. :) So do you have any talents?
ME: Uh...
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Do any sports?
ME: No.
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Dance?
ME: No.
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Sing?
ME: No.
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Good hand-eye coordination.
ME: Yes!
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: So can you juggle?
ME: Well, uh-
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Well, can you throw a ball in the air and catch it?
ME: Yes. *lols*
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Can you do a cartwheel?
ME: Yeah. Well, not a very good one. I mean, I can do one, but it's not excellent...
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Good, because we're going to be doing circus acts this year. *excited*
ME: Awesome!
MRS. BRAZZILL AND GIRLS: Yeah, it is. :D Thank you, that's all. Now could you go call your brother out here?
ME: Sure. XD
So I think I did really good! On my monologue at least. And the Shakespearean sonnet. The circus thing could have been way better. And I seemed like I was underselling myself when they asked about the talents. :S Oh well. So on Monday the callback paper is posted so we can see who comes to callbacks. Then at callbacks everyone goes on stage so Mrs. Brazzill can see how we take direction and stuff like that. I hope I make it! I hope Erik makes it too. Because if only one of us made it that would be really awkward. I'm sure I'll make it in... I mean if Ashley and Cheryl did... I'm a way better actor than them. But there are so many more people who signed up for theatre company this year. >.< Like 70 people signed up! My gawd. So much competition.
Good luck to me!
Wow, that was hardly quick.

Boys x100

So... am I more attractive than I think I am? Like seriously. Suddenly I have guys left, right, and center all over me. And I'm not trying to be vain! Or cocky! Or stuck-up or anything! I'm literally stunned. Like WTF. Kay, there's Brandon, Nick, Blake, Mike (sorry, Anne >.<), Martin, Vojtek, Westley, Lucas (just a little bit), and Imtiaz! And I think I'm forgetting some...

So I haven't blogged about Lucas or Imtiaz.

On Saturday night, I went to a party at Wendel's house. There I met Brandon for the first time! He is WAY cuter in person than in pictures! I little short but that's okay.
ME: Can I go to a party tonight?
DAD: Whose?
ME: Wendel's.
DAD: I dunno... Is Brandon gonna be there?
ME: Psh. No. He lives near the US border.
DAD: Oh, okay then.
ME: What difference does it make?
DAD: I don't like him.
ME: You've never met him before.
DAD: He texts you too much. Tell him to shut up and that he's not allowed to date you.
ME: WTF. What about what I want? Did you even think that I may not want to date him? Gawd. Fucktard.
Haha. Exaggerated again. :P So I lied because I knew Brandon was gonna be there. Nyahahaa. But I wanted to meet him so I don't care if my dad is being completely unreasonable.
At the party, I had no booze so it was lame at first. But then I just kind of batted my eyelashes at Lucas and he gave me 3 beers. Also, Amber and Jordan shared their Malibu rum with me. The beer was really good. I never really realized how much I like beer before... but I do! A lot! Also, Lucas told me that whenever he sees me he wants to pick me up because I'm so small. He then picked me up and lifted me above his head. He is STRONG. DAYM. Then when Dezarai, Steph, Lucas and I were all standing in a circle Lucas said he wanted to play this game (he might've made it up?) and it was that you kiss the neck of the person to your left. So I was on his left and Dezarai was on mine. So we did it, haha. Seems silly but we were kinda buzzed.

Imtiaz added me on Facebook a little while ago. I didn't know who he was so I sent him a message asking if I knew him. He replied by saying no, I was just a random add. But we had a lot of mutual friends so I decided to confirm him. He seemed nice. And... he's Wasim's cousin! Wasim is this guy that I had a massive crush on in grade 10. He's so gorgeous. And speaking of Wasim, he changed school's in grade 11. And I was so devastated. And now, HE'S BACK. OMG YESTERDAY HE WAS PUT IN MY MATH CLASS AND I ALMOST FAINTED AT HIS GORGEOUSNESS. I forgot how amazingly attractive he is. Wowwww. Anyway, Imtiaz is from Fiji and is Wasim's cousin! Did I already say that? And we started Facebook messaging and he called me pretty and invited me to play video games with him and Wasim. :P Aha, tempting. 'Cause of Wasim... but I don't think it'll happen. Unfortunately, Imtiaz isn't quite as attractive as Wasim. He's not bad, but... Ugh, I hate being shallow.

So I kind of have a crush on this guy in my P.E. class. His name is Talon and he's really cute. He's also nice and funny and a little crazy. It's cool. ;)

UUUGGGHHHHHH

Haven't completed any goals. :S I really should work on getting those done rather than just letting them happen by chance.

Tomorrow I'm hopefully going to go get my new glasses. I wonder if square frames will look good on me... I guess I'll have to wait and see. :P

I also need to buy a lock for P.E.. I've been borrowing Hailey's locker and I feel bad using it all the time. >.< Today we did fitness testing. I helped time the grade 9 boys when they were doing the T-test. Some of them fell down. It was funny. :D Also, I gave them tips when they were doing their sit-ups and push-ups. They really suck! HAHAHA. Although I didn't do very well either. For the beep test, I got 7.1. Which is actually really good for me at the beginning of the year. I'll try to get 10 by the end of the year... For sit-ups, I got 44 in a minute. Again, pretty good for the beginning of the semester. I got 24 push-ups. NOT GOOD. Wow, it failed. For some reason my back kept bending. Just like the grade 9's backs were. It was strange because mine doesn't usually do that. My push-ups are normally perfect!!! What happened??? Summer??? Maybe. We'll have to continue the fitness testing on Monday because we didn't finish it.

I had a test in math today. I think I did super good! I'll be surprised if I don't get 100%. I also finished an assignment in class that's due on Monday. :DD Ohh, yeahhh.

Zahra gave me this guy's number the other day... His name is Blake. Zahra told me to text him because he was trying to meet new people. So I texted him and we started talking. Then he asked for my Facebook and I gave it to him. Unfortunately, he isn't attractive! At all! DAMMIT. And he wants to hang out and I feel really terrible because I don't really want to hang out with him because he's not attractive. I'M SO SHALLOW. I'M SUCH A BAD PERSON. But it wouldn't really be possible anyway. Dad would never let me hang out with a guy who he doesn't know by myself. He only lets me hang out with Tanner by myself. >:( But I'm not interested in Tanner! I want to hang out with a guy I like! Like Vojtek... :3

I don't think I'll be able to make it to Spain in the summer. :( I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really want to go, but I don't have enough money! And I don't think I'll be able to get enough money by the time summer rolls around. It's so depressing. Maybe I'll talk to Shannon about asking her parents to pay for me. >.< I'd feel so bad though. But this is a once in a lifetime experience... UGH. *cries*

When I'm writing my blogs, I often start ranting about stuff and then realized I ranted about it already in my last blog. It's kind of funny. XD

I wanted to go to a party tonight with Steph, Cat, and Amber, but my dad wouldn't let me because it was at someone's house who he didn't know, one of Cat's friends. When I asked him why when he originally said no, he said he didn't have to give me a reason... it was fucking retarded! Like, even the priest said that parents SHOULD DEFINITELY give their kids a reason for their decisions! My parents are really bad parents. Like actually. WHY ARE THEY SO FUCKING DUMB???? FUCK. Anyway, after pestering my dad and bitching at him, he said he didn't want me to go to the party because of Angelia Qiu. She was the girl in my school who was stabbed to death last year. I was like wtf. What does that have to do with anything. And then he said that she was at a party with people she didn't know and that's where it happened. Um... dad? I fucking know my friends! And they don't hang out with murderous bastards! Idiot. I sometimes think he just enjoys saying no to me and watching me suffer. Fucking asshole.

Where is the happy face???
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Actually there is an equal amount of sad faces and happy faces. :DD

Needing a Stressball

Goals I've completed:
2. Hang out with Tanner

Yesterday was my first day of school. My homeroom was in the theatre with Mrs. Brazzill, who is going to be my theatre company director. She's really friendly, bubbly, and funny. I practiced my monologue a couple of times, and I already have most of it memorized. I think it's believable? I can't really tell since it's me doing it. Today, this girl named Cheryl who was in theatre last year told me that she was doing a monologue from the Princess Bride. She also said that Mrs. Brazzill had told her that she would like to see monologues from Shakespeare because apparently we are doing Shakespeare this year. But I don't want to do a monologue from Shakespeare or from a movie because I want to do something that hasn't been done before so there are no comparisons and I can set my own bar.
So this is the monologue I chose:

Tina is angry with her boyfriend, or should I say ex-boyfriend. Her anger and humiliation is so intense that her eyes begin to glaze, but proudly holds back the tears as she gives him a peace of her mind.

Tina: What do you thing you're doing?! I mean as if it wasn't bad enough you asked Ginny out on a date behind my back, but I had to find out about it, from Shannon, who couldn't wait to throw it in my face. I was so humiliated, I could have died! I thought we were supposed to be going out...isn't that what you told me Monday? What ever happened too, "Tina, you're different from other girls," or, "I feel like I can tell you anything", or, "I knew you were special the first time I saw you"? Were you just playing me? What do you want from me? (Pause) No! You know what? I don't even care...this whole thing was just a pathetic lie to satisfy your ego, wasn't it?...I mean you didn't even have the decency to break it off before you jumped into something else. I can't believe I fell for the whole honesty routine...Just leave, I can't even look at you, you make me sick (Pause) Please, just leave!...O.K...I admit it, you got me, so take your little trophy, add me to your collection and get out of my life!

I think I'm pretty good at sounding upset, angry, exasperated, etc. 'Cause I have a lot of practice. :P So this is a good choice for me in my opinion.

Today was my second day of school. My first class was Math with Mr. Kerkhoven, who I love! He's my favouritest math teacher ever! I'm so glad I got him for grade 12. He gave us work today though. >:( We don't HAVE to do it though. But it's review, so we should. I have two friends in this class: Pardeep and Jen. Unfortunately, there's a seating plan so I don't sit beside either of them.
My next class was P.E. 12 with Mr. Vandop. I also have two friends in this class: Silva and Hayley. Unfortunately, they are friends with each other so they will most likely choose each other for the teaching assignment. And then I'd be partnerless... I don't want to be stuck with someone I don't know. D: Hopefully we can make a group of three. Last year I did, but that was because there was an odd number of people in the class. I should count the people in my class tomorrow...
After that was lunch and my friends and I ate in the same place that we have sat since grade 8. It's great. :D
Then I had Geography 12 with Ms. Ackroyd. I have tons of friends in this class! There's Sarah, Maggie, Taryn, Jai, Daniela, and Nanlar (YAY!)!!!! This class is apparently a lot like Earth Science... which is... um... not what I wanted. I wanted to be colouring in maps. Haha! XD And at the beginning of the class, Ms. Ackroyd said, "If you joined this class just so that you'd be drawing maps the whole time, you're going to be very disappointed!" I was like, "Dammit!"
Next, I had Visual Arts: Media Arts 12, which is photography with Mrs. Muti, who was on maturnity leave last year. I also have a ton of friends in this class! They are Meaghan, Tas, Jimmy, Hayley, Crystal, and Candice. :3 We didn't learn anything about this class because we had an assembly.
The assembly was disturbing. There is so much shit that grade 12's need to do to graduate. I want to get a job, but I don't think I'll be able to with all of the crap I have to do! ALL of my classes sounds intense and pretty much homework-driven, I have theatre company which takes up a HUGE amount of time, I have my grad transitions package to do, and I have all the other grad stuff! How could I possibly manage all of that AND a job??? My mom suggested I just get a weekend job, but I think I'd need the weekends for rest and to catch up on everything! Man, this year is going to be stressful. I can tell already. I hope I can get a 4.0 GPA again. Last year I almost didn't. And grade 12 is undeniably tougher.
Sighhh, I just need to keep my head on straight. And study a lot. And practice a lot. And... ARRRGHHHHHH.

Cool and Clean!

Goals I've completed:
59. Get haircut

O...M...G... I have school tomorrow! Today is my last day of my last summer vacation! And it's a pretty shitty day... The weather is gross. >:( I only have school for an hour tomorrow. Hopefully I'll hang out with friends afterwards.
I really want to see Nanlar. I miss her a lot. I phoned her on Saturday to ask if she wanted to go to Splashdown with me on Sunday. She doesn't like water, but I thought I'd ask her anyway. :P I wasn't surprised when she wasn't very enthusiastic about it though. Haha! So I phoned Tanner to see if he could go with me because we haven't hung out yet this summer. He didn't answer though, so I phoned Taryn and she came with me! I was glad she could come on such short notice. It was my first time at Splashdown. AND IT WAS AWESOME. I had so much fun. And Taryn and I had a good talk. :) About stuff... haha! My favourite slides were the Whipper Snapper, the River Run, and I don't know the name to the last one, which is the tall black and yellow one. Taryn and I closed my eyes on the nameless one which was really fun! Also, Erik and his friend Dynell (I don't know how to spell it XD) came and we made a huge train on the River Run, even though you weren't supposed to. ;) Naughty naughty! Dynell slept over last night. Then I raced him in Need for Speed this morning and totally pwned him. I pwn everyone in that game though.
I got a haircut today! I got 3 inches cut off and layers and I got it thinned. I also got the lady to fix my bangs because they were looking pretty gay. It feels a lot lighter now that it's been thinned.
I need to go get my new glasses soon. Hopefully next weekend.
I also really need to start working on my monologue for Theatre Company. Damn! I haven't been working on it because I don't really want anyone to be home when I do so that I can practice. But Erik and my dad just got home from being out. And I was home alone. SHIT. Oh, well. I'll start working on it tomorrow. The auditions are next week I think... I get nervous thinking about it. Auditioning. I've never auditioned for anything before in my life. I'm totally been spamming my friends in Theatre Company, demanding tips and such. Hahaha! Wow, I'm such a loser.
Zahra gave me this guys number... just randomly. She was like "Wanna meet a guy??? Here's his number!" It was so strange, haha! His name is Blake. I texted him and we started talking. Apparently, Zahra gave me his number because he wants to meet people. That made more sense. He lives in Abbotsford! And he knows Jenn and Kirin! I told him my best friend's name was Anne and he asked if she was friends with Jenn and Kirin and I was like omg yeah! and then he said he hadn't met Anne but Kirin had talked about her before. So I thought it was neat and coincidental. Also, he has a car. ;) He's 18. I hope he's attractive... I should ask for his Facebook.
My back is hurting. I need a massage. :( Well, I'm going to go on Facebook now. And then go watch the sixth Harry Potter.
Pce!

Fail of a Long Blog

Goals I've completed:
1. Bathe Lobo
24. Visit Anne in Abbotsford
50. See Scott Pilgrim VS. The World
51. Complete watching Avatar: The Last Airbender episodes

Goals I've added:
57. Make art for AE
58. Get new glasses
59. Get haircut

I'm sick. :( I have a cold and my nose is running and I'm sneezing and coughing. It sucks balls.
I'm also currently watching Repo-Men. It's a lot more interesting than I thought it would be. And Jude Law is fucking sexy.
So I'm going to try to make this blog long because I haven't blogged in a long while.
I babysat today. It was good because it was a short day. I got off at around 2:30. Also, I've become pretty darn good at MarioKart because Rory enjoys watching me play it. It's so awesome! I didn't get paid today because Colleen didn't have any money. But she said she would stop by my house later (it is now later) with money. I hope she does...
Tomorrow I'm hopefully going to get a haircut. Or the day after I will... I don't know yet. My last one was in January. Also, my glasses broke. The arm snapped off like last week while I was trying to put them on. Then my dad glued them but they broke again. Now they are re-glued until I get new ones.
I've started re-reading Harry Potter. And watching the movies. I finished the first book and started the first movie and started the second book. I've forgotten how much I love those books. :D
My sneezes have become painful. UGH THIS SUCKS.
Ooh, yay! Jude Law is topless. But he's also getting his organs ripped out...
I'm hungry. And I want to watch Harry Potter.
Blah, I'm so boring. I really have nothing to talk about. XD Sorry about the fail of a long blog.

Scattered Thoughts

Goals I've completed:
4. Hang out with Taryn, Merisa, and Emilie. (except not Merisa... but oh, well)

Goals I've added:
55. Complete watching High School Host Club episodes
56. Complete watching Bleach episodes

OMG I'M SO HUNGRY. AND MY HOUSE SMELLS LIKE DELICIOUS FOOD. IT'S TORTUREE!!!!! AHHH!!! *dies*
So this is a non-emo blog today, just so ya know. XD Sorry about that last one. Ha. Feelings. You know what it's like.
I seriously can't concentrate because I'm so hungry.
Ugh, I need to clean the house. I want to go visit Anne in Abbotsford and my dad said he will drive me as long as the house is clean before we leave. Which will be tomorrow around 11:00am I think. Because apparently I need to get there before 12? Because we are going to Cultus. At least that's what I understood.
HUNGRRYYYYY.
My thoughts are so scattered right now.
I got paid $100 for babysitting today! Man, it was nice holding all of those twenties in my hands. Colleen, the mother of Rory, convinced Peter, the father, to give me a raise. :DD Nice! Thanks Colleen!
Now I need to go clean the house. And kick my dad's ass in Soul Caliber III. And write my story.
So pce, short blog.
HUNGRY. BEAST. MUST. EAT.

Angry Again

UGH. I HATE BEING MAD. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY BECAUSE I WANT TO BREAK THINGS BUT I NEVER DO. I think I'm going to explode one day. I'm so sick of all this shit. I can literally make myself cry whenever I want to because I'm so upset. One second I'll think my life is perfect and be the happiest person in the world, but the next second... my dad or my brother just has to fuck it up.
Erik's such an immature idiot. He starts fights randomly by calling me a bitch or ugly and then blames me for all of our fighting. He also farts in my face and... GAH. LIKE WTF. You're fucking 15! Grow up!
My dad's also an immature idiot! The other day in church, I was trying to open the bulletin but it was difficult because it was all folded up and shit, and then my dad tried to grab it from me. First I pulled it away so he couldn't grab it thinking what the heck is he doing? Maybe I was being possessive because I had been using it as a fan. But anyway, he tried to grab it away again and this time I smacked his hand. Sure, I smacked it. But not hard. He says I elbowed him in the chest but wtf, no I didn't. Then he stopped trying to grab it and disappeared immediately after mass was over and drove home by himself. Luckily my mom was there to drive me home. Then he said I was being a rude bitch and gave my cellphone to Erik! AND he kicked me out of the house! JUST FOR SMACKING HIS HAND.
It drives me insane! Sometimes I want to kill them and other times I just want to kill myself to be rid of this bullshit! And that'll fucking make them happy, so why not? That's exactly why actually, because it'll make them happy.
I know it sounds like I'm overreacting, but you don't know what it's like. I've had to deal with this and more for YEARS. I'm finally coming to my senses and realizing this isn't acceptable or right. SO I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE.
You know what actually? Maybe I should just take it. Not taking it doesn't seem to be working. But it's not who I am to take bullshit. But then they don't like who I am... which wouldn't normally bother me, but they're my family. All I want is their love. I don't even know if they really love me. Erik always says he doesn't, but I like to tell myself he's just being a 15 year old boy. But then he always tells Jess he loves her. My dad tells me he loves me... but now I'm having a hard time believing it if he's going to kick me out of the house and give away my phone just for smacking his hand.
Something needs to change. Maybe I should just disappear and make everyone happy. Ha. But I'm too selfish to do that. But I don't know what to do... Well, how about you stop whining Raven?
Fine.

ZOMG

Goals I've completed:
...NONE! OMGGG.

I've already tried making this blog, but my power went out when I was like halfway done. And it was so long! Man, I was mad.
So two days ago, I went to Anime Evolution.
ZOMG, IT WAS AWESOME. I already can't wait until next year. I've also gotten my siblings excited about going. ;P
I slept over at Tas' house on Friday night. I got there at around 8:30pm and we chilled in her room for a bit. Then we played Rockband on her Wii. Tas' little sister, Taye, joined us. I usually like playing the drums the best, but you had to hit these drums really hard to make them hit the note in the game. So it wasn't very fun. I really enjoyed singing though. And I'm good at it too. :P I liked playing guitar too. But somehow, I just prefer playing Rockband on the PS2.
After we finished playing, Tas and I jumped into Tas' pool. It was COLD. Tas jumped in with her shorts on by accident! And with her $60 in them! AHAHA. It was so funny. We only went in up to our waists. No deeper. We listened to Tas' Asian urban techno music. Ahaha. It was pretty neat. We danced and splashed around and acted like tards basically. Also, there were these two little waterproof plastic things that flashed disco lights. They were awesome! There was also a watergun thingy. After about 10 minutes, Taye joined us. She took so long to get into the pool that I sprayed her with the watergun thingy. She didn't like it obviously. Ahaha. I'm so evil. >:) After about another 20 minutes, we got out of the pool and dried off.
Back inside, we got into our pajamas and then I straightened our hair. Tas was faster then me, whether it's because she has mad hair straightening skills or I have little experience or I was trying a new way to straighten my hair or my hair is longer so it takes more time to straighten I don't know...
After that, I went on Facebook to see if Tanner had replied to the message I sent him with the info about AE. He replied that he couldn't go, although I couldn't really tell what he was saying about the reason why. So we called him and he said he couldn't go because he had only one piece of ID. We told him that Tas had gotten in one year with only one piece of ID, but neither he or his parents wanted to risk it. So we finally gave up trying to convince him to come. Both Tas and I kind of got the drift that he just didn't want to come though. But whatever.
So at like 2:30am, we decided it was time for bed. Tas and I both slept in her bed. It was big and nice. Tas is a really great person to share a bed with actually... I just realized that. Lol! She doesn't move at all during the night. Unlike Anne. Gawd. XD AHAHA. Don't worry, Anne. I still love sleeping with you. ;D Tas has some kind of fear of silence or something like that, so she kept her music on when we hopped in bed. I listened to it for about half an hour, then fell asleep. It turned off after another half an hour.
Our alarms went off at 6:00am. I got dressed first into my Misa costume and then I put on my makeup. I fixed my hair and put the little Misa ponytails into it. I definitely looked like Misa! ;D I then ate a bowl of Mini-Wheats. I packed all my crap and put it by the front door. I then waited a little while for Tas to finish up with her Manba costume. Manba is a Japanese fashion style.
When we were both ready, Tas' mom drove us to Gateway. We skytrained to Granville. Along the way, we saw a few cosplayers who were obviously heading to AE also. They got off before Granville though. It made us kind of nervous and we wondered if we should follow them, but we decided against it. After we got off at Granville, we looked in vain for a bus stop. Eventually, we asked a man how to get to UBC and he pointed the way to the bus stop. We got to the bus stop and saw that the number 4 bus went to UBC. Then we noticed that the 4 had just left! D: So we waited for about 10 minutes, getting nervouser and nervouser. Tas asked a bus driver when the 4 would arrive and he said soon. So we relaxed. About 5 minutes later, the 4 arrived. Hooray! We got on and there were four other cosplayers! As I walked past, I heard one of them say, "Ooh, Death Note!" They were talking about me. :P One of them was dressed as Naruto, another as Itachi, another as a female Naruto, and another as a colourful Misa. We talked with them and made friends. :)
Finally we arrived at UBC! We walked with our new friends for a while, then left them, saying a hearty goodbye.
It was amazing the instant connection that you feel with all of the other cosplayers there. It's like... you're all there for the same reason and know that you have something in common... it's just incredible. You can ask any person if you can take a picture of them and they will say, "Sure!" and drop all of their things and pose for you. It's AWESOME. :D I loved seeing all of the cosplays. Almost everyone was dressed up. And some of the outfits were AMAZING.
The first thing we did was look at all of the art in the Artists Villa. I think I'll get a table with Tas next year. That'd be sweet. :) We'd make a lot of $$! Ooh, I'm so excited already! I didn't buy anything because I couldn't choose! Everything was so good!
We walked around a lot and just checked out the cosplays and chilled.
We also watched a cosplay contest, in which people did stand-up, skits, poses, etc.
We ate sushi for lunch at 1:30. Tas was a beast! Ahaha. She ate twice as much sushi as I did in the same amount of time! LOL.
People stared at Tas a lot. And they didn't even care if she noticed. XD Two or three people recognized that she was Manba. Quite a few people asked to take her picture. People asked if they could take my picture too. About 5 or 6 people asked. They would come up to me and say, "Misa, can I take your picture?" I thought it was really cool how they recognized who I was, because Misa doesn't have the most outrageous outfit, but it's still pretty out there I guess.
In the AMV room, there was a game show like thing going on. They would show funny anime clips that were made and then these three people (one named Senor Cupcake and another Taco XD) would answer questions about it. It was entertaining. There, Tas' friend Katy met up with us. She is really pretty and funny and nice. I like her a lot. :)
So we finished watching the AMV thing with her and then looked at the art again. I first bought a couple of 50 cent drawings of Naruto and Sasuke for Erik and Jess. They were cute and funny and cheap! I couldn't resist. Next, I bought a 50 cent button/pin/thing with Ichigo on it. Sooo coooolll. Then I bought a couple of keychains of laminated drawings of Sora and Roxas ($4 for two).
Then, we went to the dealer's room. This was where they sold items like books, costumes, stuffed animals, etc. that are related to animes or mangas. Katy bought two stuffed classic emo teddy bears. Tas bought a yaoi badge. The last one there... ahaha.
We then went to a Japanese restaurant off of campus. It was a nice place. I liked the tea a lot. Tas and I weren't very hungry, so we shared one order of Gyoza (dumplings). But Katy was also a beast! She ate so much! I'm not even going to try to name everything she ate.
After we finished eating, we walked back to campus and chilled on a staircase for a while.
Katy walked us to the Final Fantasy Fight Tournament. But then she had to leave, so we said goodbye. The tournament was so funny! Teams of three people would fight video-game style on the stage. I wish I could have seen who won, but it was still brilliant.
After that, Tas wanted to look at the art again, so we went back to the villa, but they were packing up already. It was about 7:15 at this point.
So we left to the bus stop. We got on and sat down, waiting for the bus to leave. It was waiting for more people. A couple of shirtless guys got on and sat down behind us. They must have been on drugs or something because they were acting like idiots.
My interpretation of things:
GUY #1: So what's going on here???
LADY IN THE CORNER: It's a convention.
GUY #1: A Halloween convention???
RAVEN'S THOUGHTS: Those only happen in October, idiot.
TAS: No, an anime convention.
GUY #1: So what are you dressed as?
RAVEN: I'm a character from an anime.
GUY #1: And you?
TAS: I'm a Japanese fashion style called Manba.
GUYS: LOL.
US: *attempting to ignore*
GUY #1: So how long have you been down here?
RAVEN: Um... we got here pretty early.
TAS: Yeah, at about 9?
GUYS: Woah!
GUY #1: So what's your name?
RAVEN: Sarah.
*handshakes*
GUY #1: I'm Nigel.
GUY #2: Nice to meet you. I'm David.
GUY #1: And your name?
TAS: Michiko. Nice to meet you.
*handshakes*
So they were basically creeps. When the guy asked my name, I was like oh hell no! In my head. Aha. Didn't want him finding me on Facebook or anything. I'm glad Tas followed my lead. Her name pwned mine though. I should have said my name was Misa. :P LOL.
So we eventually got back to Gateway, where Tas' mom picked us up and drove me home, which was very kind of her.
Overall, I had a really really really great time. It was definitely worth $45. :) Next year, I hope I can go for all three days!
P.S. This blog took hours to write... because of watching Avatar episodes in between paragraphs. ;D

Anime Evolution

Goals I've completed:
35. Prepare Misa cosplay for Anime Evolution
40. Charge camera

So I'm really excited about going to Anime Evolution tomorrow!!! :DD Tonight I'm sleeping over at Tas' which will also be UBER FUN. I've never slept over at Tas' house before. I wonder where I'll be sleeping... hahaha. XD
Also, I invited Tanner to Anime Evolution! He wants to go so I hope it works out.
I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE MY FRIENDS. <3 YAYY.
I loved hearing Tas' voice on the phone. I miss her. :)

I'm Not a Slut!

Goals I've completed:
17. Watch episodes of South Park and Family Guy on Erik's PSP Go with him

Goals I've added:
54. Moisturize every night before bed.

Nick texted me this morning. He wanted to pick me up so that we could hook up. XD Ahahaaa. I'm nervous about being with him on my own, even though he said "We don't have to have sex. We can just make out and cuddle. :)" Maybe I'm just worried about awkwardness? And that he'll try to have sex with me obviously. And what if I don't like him? We've never even met! What the hell is with all these guys who want to hook up with me even though we've never met?! Well, it's like two guys. But still. I hate how I want to but I'm like too scared. I wish I was just one or the other. Not both. >.< It's annoying!
I asked my dad on Tuesday if I could hang out with Brandon on Wednesday, which was the next day. My dad said no... because he didn't know Brandon and "boys are bad." Fuck. Seriously? I'm 17 and I still can't hang out with guys on my own? Wtf. It's not like I would hang out with guys who I don't trust. I trust Brandon even though I've never met him... dunno why. XD
DAD: Raven, you can go hang out with guys alone when you're 18.
ME: Um... what? What's gonna change when I'm 18?
DAD: You'll be considered an adult.
ME: What the hell? So? How is being "considered an adult" gonna change who I am? How is it going to change how I act?
DAD: *ignoring me because he knows I have a point*
He does that a lot... it pisses me off.
So with these guys hitting on me and wanting to do stuff... it's making me really want to do stuff too. I don't know how though. XD Meh, oh well. It'll happen one day I guess. Hahaha. XD
Erik enjoys calling me a slut by the way just because of all of these guys hitting on me.

Vampires Suck

Goals I've completed:
7. Renew or return library book
36. Return Queen of the Damned to Jessica

And here are some new ones:
43. See Eclipse
44. See Despicable Me
45. See Dinner for Schmucks
46. See Inception
47. See Knight and Day
48. See The Other Guys
49. See Toy Story 3
50. See Scott Pilgrim VS. The World
51. Comlete watching Avatar: The Last Airbender episodes
52. Complete watching Naruto Shippuden Episodes
53. Watch Vampires Suck

So as you can see, I've been thinking about movies lately. Ahaha. I saw Eclipse yesterday with my dad. And I actually liked it. Like... a lot. WTF RIGHT??? The first two were SHITTAYYY. Maybe it was the new director... I think his name is David Slade? Or something like that. Anyway, I really enjoyed it. And Taylor Lautner was as sexy as ever. And Robert Pattinson stays clothed. YAY. <3 Although he does become more likeable in this movie somehow. In my opinion at least. My dad even liked it. And we both agree that the werewolves pwn the vampires. I really can't wait to see Vampires Suck! It looks hilarious!!!

To Do List

I haven't blogged in a while. Haha, oops. Sorry. :P
I spent all of the past three days with Anne. On Friday, we went to Playland with her brother. It was a lot of fun screaming our heads off and annoying people. We also had a lot of fun text-teasing boys. On Saturday, we went shopping at Metrotown. Anne bought so much stuff. XD Holy crap. I just bought a couple of bras and a book. We also went swimming and stared at the cute boys there. Yesterday, we baked a coffee cake and went to Hawthorne park and talked a lot. I had such a good time. I only wish I could have gone back with her to Abbotsford. But her cousins said I couldn't for a dumb reason. >:( UGH. I miss her already. And I also really wanted to meet her friend Chad, who, apparently, is amazing.
So now I'm bored with nothing to do, nowhere to go, and no one to meet. :(
I made a to do list last night. Here it is:
To Do List
1. Bathe Lobo
2. Hang out with Tanner
3. Hang out with Nanlar.
4. Hang out with Taryn, Merisa, and Emilie.
5. Hang out with Vojtek
6. Hang out with Brandon
7. Renew or return library book
8. Pay dues to library
9. Work on art piece for Nanlar
10. Work on art piece for Erik
11. Work on CD for Erik
12. Hang out with Christine
13. Go job hunting
14. Draw
15. Update iPod
16. Write story
17. Watch episodes of South Park and Family Guy on Erik's PSP Go with him
18. Complete Rockband on Erik's PSP Go
19. Clean up room and desk
20. Beat Prince of Persia
21. Complete Chapters survey
22. Get Kingdom Hearts II to start working somehow
23. Meet Chad
24. Visit Anne in Abbotsford
25. Plan sleepover for Squirettes with Anne
26. Spend less money
27. Take 7 deadly sins pictures
28. Drink more water (drink only water, milk, and alcohol)
29. Watch 30 Days of Night with someone
30. Convince Dad to give me an allowance
31. Get a new phone
32. Get Michael's number
33. Work out every night before bed to be fit
34. Stretch while watching tv to become flexible
35. Prepare Misa cosplay for Anime Evolution
36. Return Queen of the Damned to Jessica
37. Get curling iron from Mom
38. Get a bigger bookshelf
39. Buy voodoo doll for phone
40. Charge camera
41. Practice diving
42. Make shortbread cookies
So the italicised ones are the only ones I've completed... which is one. XD Ahaha. I also left out 3 from the list because they are a bit personal or I just don't want to explain them because only I can understand them. So every time I complete one of these goals I will blog it. :) Because I'm bored like that.

Please...

A while ago, my little brother Erik found a lump beneath one of his nipples. He wasn't too worried, but he told our parents anyway and they made a doctor's appointment. The appointment was yesterday. I didn't go with him, but my dad did. And apparently, the doctor said it doesn't look good. They took a sample of whatever the lump is with a needle and the test results are supposed to come in sometime today. I'm kind of scared. Actually I'm really scared. I don't even want to think about what it could be or what could happen. I've had bloody nightmares about shit like this. All I can do is pray and hope for the best. And keep Erik distracted. When he came home yesterday, I could see in his face that he was terrified. My dad looked extremely nervous as well. Erik went right up to his room to be by himself. God, I feel sick just thinking about it. Please let it all be okay...

I'm Italian, African CANADIAN, and German???

British
[ ] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word “bugger” or the phrase “bloody hell.”
[ ] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[x] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] It’s football…not soccer.
Total: 2

Australian
[ ] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flip flops thongs not flip flops.
[x] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You’re a sports fanatic.
[x] You are tanned.
[ ] You’re a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an australian something
Total: 5

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[x] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[x] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5’10”
[ ] You know what a Italian horn is
[ ] Spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total: 6

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of remember.
[x] You speak Spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a puta is.
[ ] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[x] You know what platanos are.
Total: 4

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[ ] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[x] You get cold easily.
[ ] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[ ] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 2

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[x] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O’, Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[ ] You like the color green.
[x] You have been to a St.Patrick’s Day party.
[x] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[x] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 5

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[x] You like rap.
[x] You know how to shoot a gun
[x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[x] You can dance.
[ ] You can ‘sing’ gospel.
Total: 6

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[ ] You like rice a lot.
[x] You are good at math.
[ ] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from Asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you’re Chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes, typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 2

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[x] You Speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[x] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[ ] You went to pre-school.
[x] You’re over 5’2
Total: 6

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[x] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[x] You know what poutine is.
[x] You speak some French.
[x] You love Tim Horton’s.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched Degrassi.
Total: 5

American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[ ] You’re lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[x] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don’t read.
[x] You shop at Walmart.
[ ] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 2

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Dogsitting

So, I'm currently dogsitting for Loops (my nickname for Looper). He has tried to hump me a lot. :S It's disturbing! So far, we've watched the movie Just Friends with Ryan Reynolds. Yumm. He lay beside me the whole time and watched most of the movie. I ate half of a cookie and he ate two dog cookies. I didn't even have to feed them to him. :D Woah, this creepy guy just pulled up into the driveway in a truck. I saw him get out of the truck, but then I left to fix the air conditioning, and now he's vanished! But his truck is still there! I'm really freaked out. Oh, well. If I die, I die I guess. Shitty way to go though.
Looper is sitting on the stairwell, watching the door. I hope he's guarding it from the creepy guy.
Kay, the creepy guy just phoned and asked if Cheryl was here. He thought she had the day off. I told him she thought she did but found out she had to go to the school. He said his name is Jeff. I think he's like Cheryl's fuck-buddy or something. Now he left. Thank God. XD
So, I have to pee really bad. I'm going to go do that. Also, I'm going to watch some more Avatar episodes!!! YAY. :DD
Ta ta!

Are All My Blogs Going to Be About Boys?

I'm so mad at my stupid cellphone! It has problems with receiving texts, so sometimes I don't get the texts that people send me. It's so frustrating! And it looks like I'm just ignoring them. *throws phone at wall* Idiot! I want a new one. :'( To get two new ones is only $25, but my dad still won't do it. GRR. *bites phone in half*
I was talking to Nick on msn yesterday and then he sent me a webcam invite. I accepted. And DAYM. He's more attractive than I thought he was. And mucho tan too. ;) I looked like poop though. But he still said I looked good. Awww! <3 So we chatted and cammed for a bit, but then he went to a movie with his brother. Bye, Nick! I want to meet him soon.
I really want to meet Brandon soon, too. This is ridiculous how I talk to these guys but I've never actually met them!
Also, I found out yesterday that Martin's girlfriend dumped him. D: I was genuinely surprised and empathetic. He was quite upset. I don't know what happened yet because he didn't want to talk about it, so I didn't push it. I feel really bad for him though.
What's with all the breakups lately???
I tried texting Glen again, but he hasn't replied. :( Crappp, he's probably forgotten me already.
Tomorrow, I'm going to petsit Looper, the dog that Jessica's looks after. Why is she not doing it? Well, Tuesdays are supposed to be Jess' day off, but Cheryl (the dog's owner) found out she had to go out that day. Cheryl didn't want Jess to have to work on her day off, so she asked Jess if there was anyone else who would do if for her. And Jess asked me, and I said HELL YEAH. As long as I get the $$. :DD
My dad just called me a bitch. What an asshole.
I'm going to go write my story now 'cause now I'm too upset to write any more here.

Mas Chicos ;)

The night before last night, I went to a party at the sanddunes. I went with Steph, Cat, Amber, Jordan, and some other people. There turned out to be around 30 people there I think, but I barely knew most of them. So I was kind of bored and awkward. Jordan and this guy named Zac kept pressuring me to drink, even though I didn't want to because I didn't feel like it. Also, it was in public so if I got caught, I would be screwed. But I ended up drinking some anyway. I drank a beer, some tequila, and almost a full can of rockstar vodka (omg soooo good). I got a little over buzzed I'd say. Not quite tipsy though. Because retardedly, I am not a lightweight.
I ended up really needing to pee, so I grabbed Steph and she began leading me to the bushes. We passed these two guys who were sitting on their own and they asked us to sit down. I said, "On the way back!"
So Steph and I peed. She was quite drunk at this point. On the way back, we sat with the boys. I sat between them, and Steph sat beside the guy on my left. His name was Vojtek (pronounce VOY-teck). The other guy was named Michael. They were both cute. They were both 18. Michael was asian and Vojtek was white. Anyway, we talked for a bit about random crap and then Steph left. I was left sitting there between them. I expected it to get awkward, but it didn't! We kept talking and joking around and it was a lot of fun. We even ran about and threw sand at eachother.
Eventually, at like 2 in the morning, everyone started leaving. This was because like everyone was pissed (as in drunk off their rocker). Steph was too. She was puking. Aw, I felt so bad for her. I remember when that happened to me. It was terrible. So we spent a long time trying to figure out how we were going to get Steph home. I was sleeping over at her house, so I had to go with her. Ashley Sykes, the lesbian who has a massive crush on Steph, kept insisting on going with us even though her girlfriend wanted Ashley to go with her. Because honestly, we didn't need her there. She was just causing problems.
As we began walking down the road away from the dunes, we noticed a cruiser idling a little ways ahead of us. Breanna, Ashley's girlfriend, had stormed off earlier and we found her talking to the cop in the car. Ashley walked up to her and began talking to the cop also. Everyone else: me, Steph, Cat, Neil, Vojtek, Michael, Dezarai, and this other dude (no idea who he was), simply walked past the police. They didn't say boo. Man, we were lucky because Steph was like falling over and still feeling nauseous.
Vojtek and Michael went ahead to get Vojtek's car. It wasn't far ahead. He drove back to us and picked up Steph, Cat, Dezarai, and I. He drove us to Scott Road station. We were then picked up by Dezarai's ex-boyfriend Joe. He drove us all the way to Steph's house. It was really nice of him. So Cat, Steph, and I were dropped off and Dezarai left with Joe. Presumably to have sex with him as a thank you.
We didn't head inside right away because Steph was still feeling sick. We sat in the grass and she attempted in vain to force herself to vomit. While we were sitting there, Steph mentioned that Zac really liked Cat. Zac is a professional paintball player and has a lot of $$. He owns a hurst. SO COOL. Also, he had told Steph not to let Cat go home with this other guy because Zac knew that the other guy just wanted to use her. We all thought this was really cute, so Cat called Zac and they started having a convo on the phone. Also, Steph got a text from Vojtek saying your friend raven was kinda cute. I was a little shocked because I got the feeling that he hadn't really liked me that much. So I let Steph know and she texted that to him. He replied with why would she think that? she seemed really laid back and cool. Steph gave me her phone and I texted him saying hey this is raven. He said liess. So then I texted him on my phone and we started talking. He complimented me a lot, saying I was really easy to talk to and how he thought it was dope that I called myself retarded. It was cool. :) He's quite cute too. So now we text quite a bit.
Eventually, a security guard asked us to go inside. So Steph and I did, but Cat went to McDonald's with Zac. Steph finally vomited and we went to sleep.
The next day (yesterday), I went to English Bay with Jessica and Eric (one of her friends) at 12pm. We chilled there on the beach and tanned. Eventually, Heather and Crystal and Graham showed up. All the girls went into the water for a bit. I didn't go in all the way because it's my time of the month. >:( Gawd, how frustrating. Heather didn't go in all the way either, but Crystal and Jessica did. Jessica splashed me though. Eventuallyer, Zahra and Jordyn joined us.
When we went to get food, we passed this ice cream stand with the cutest boy ever selling them. HOLY SHIT HE WAS GORGEOUS. We all gaped. Jordyn kept mentioning wanting to get his number. So, trying to build up her courage, she went and bought an ice cream. She said, "You must be bored. How old are you? 15?" The boy protested, "16!" I thought he looked 17 or 18. Omg, he was so SEXY. He had the flippy dirty blonde hair and a white v-neck t-shirt. Also it was raining, so he was soaked. HAWT. So, we left with nothing more than we had arrived with. Except for an ice cream in Jordyn's hands. She kept going on and on about how she wanted his number. A short while later, we went back for more food. Jessica and Zahra bought hot dogs. On the way back, I was thinking 'You know what? What's the worst that could happen?"
So I walked right up to cute-ice-cream-boy and asked, "What can I get for free?"
He gave me a strange look and said, "Um... nothing. I'm sorry, I'm not allowed to give anything away for free."
"Aw, nothing?" I replied with a cute? pout. Then... "What about your number?" I smiled slightly.
He took a step back and kind of raised his hands in a "I'm sorry" gesture. "I have a girlfriend."
"Oh, okay," I said, crestfallen. I turned away, thinking he wouldn't want to give me his number if he had said that. It was cute that he was faithful though.
"But do you still want it?"
I smiled and whipped my phone out, saying, "Sure, yeah." So he gave me his number and I found out his name was Glen. OMG CUTE.
When I rejoined my group, Zahra asked if I got it and I said yep! Most of the girls crowded around me and so I told my story. :P It was funny. I felt brave and excited and cool.
Later on, when we went to pick up Matt from the station, I gave him a mini toblerone. I said, "Want a mini toblerone?" He said, "Sure. Thanks." He took it and I left.
So we watched the fireworks, which were AMAZING.
On the way home, I asked Jessica when I should text Glen. She mentioned that I didn't want him to forget me, but I also didn't want to seem desperate. So I decided to text him that night to remind him who I was, but then wait for a day and a half to text him again.
So at home, I texted him.
ME: How was the toblerone?
GLEN: Delicious
ME: Glad you enjoyed it :)
GLEN: Thank yoou
ME: Haha np. I had tons
GLEN: Awesome lol
ME: Ya i jacked them from my friend :P
GLEN: Badaass
ME: I know :) im raven btw
GLEN: Okaaaay haha
ME: Whats so funny? D:
GLEN: Noothin :p
ME: Lol. Well you must be tired so ill let you go now
GLEN: Not tired at all, but I gotta work so cyaa
ME: Have fun workingg ttyl
GLEN: You bet

>:)