When I woke up on Sunday, I texted Zach saying, "Christine told me you thought I was dodging you all night last night?" He replied with, "Yeah, it felt that way..." Then I said, "Well, I just want you to know that I don't want to be anything more than friends right now." I really meant never ever but I thought I would be nice. Then he said, "Ok." So that's pretty much it. Chyea.
My mom picked me up from Steph's eventually and took me home. She then left. After a while, my dad got home. When he walked in the door, I said hi. Then he said, "So you slept over at Steph's." It wasn't really a question, but I was like WTF. HOW DOES HE KNOW?! So I said, "Who told you?" And he said my mom did. He then went into my closet, took my grad dress, got into the car, and left.
Fuck.
When he got home, he went on the computer and cancelled my cellphone.
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Really? All of that just for sleeping over at my friend's house? I don't even have words to explain how I feel about this. Does he not care if I grow up to resent him? Because that's what's happening. As if I'm ever going to visit him when I move out. He can go suck a dick. And how does he expect to control me now? He can no longer threaten me with returning my grad dress. He can no longer take my phone away. And if he doesn't let me on the computer, I can always use my ipod. He's just as fucking stupid as my mom is. Except my mom is just ignorant. My dad... he's mentally fucking retarded.
HOOOOLLLLLYYYYYY CCRRRAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPP. HOOOOLLLLYYYYYYY CCRRRAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's so dumb! WHY would your mom tell him, and that's a bit of an over reaction. I get why he'd be mad, but at least talk about it! HOLY. I guess it doesn't help that it probably hurts him that your mom lied to him.. again... and so he's taking it out on you, hypothetically making sure you don't go behind his back with her again... but ... that's hypothetically. I really don't know how you can handle that :( I'd try to give you advice, but really, he seems to get mad on his own terms, and sometimes it doesn't matter what you do at all. Just keep strong hun <3 I love you <3 You're almost old enough to get out of there :)
ReplyDeletemy mom told me that she didnt tell him. and i believe her so i have no idea how he found out. and i tried to talk to him about it, but he said he was too angry to talk about it.
ReplyDeleteand ive stopped going behind his back. i dont lie to him. instead i just leave and he can figure out where the hell i am on his own if he gives a crap. which he doesnt normally.
i dont get how i handle it either. im going to explode one day.
weird! Maybe Jess?
ReplyDeleteI think thats a good idea, what is he gunna do? Just keep outta trouble <3 :)
Hmm as cheesy as it sounds, try to give it to God? xox
nah it wasnt jess.
ReplyDeletehere God, have my troubles. aha i think he has enough to deal with.