My Dad never listens to me when I try to talk to him in person. I was subjected to having to send him a Facebook message. It may seem rather dramatic, but it's how I really feel.
Here it is:
"You know what's awful? That I have to send you a damn Facebook message to get you to listen to me. You have no idea how much like mom you are.
"I don't think you get what you are doing to me. I'm never good enough for you! Do you not understand that makes me feel worthless? Whenever I try to do something nice, you just say thanks or give me a kiss on top of my head. But you know what? That's not good enough either! I need to KNOW that you appreciate it. Otherwise I'm going to keep feeling worthless. And do you know what happens when someone feels worthless? You of all people should know.
"Ever since mom moved out, you've been taking out your anger at her on me. I don't know if you realize it, but I know it's true. I remember around the time she moved out, you told Erik and I never to threaten you by saying we would just ditch you and go to mom's if you tried to discipline us. We promised that we wouldn't. But then you started telling me to just get out of your house anyway, which is rather hypocritical. Even if it was for something that was completely your fault, you would tell me to get out. Do you really think it is okay that you call me a bitch and a cow and tell me to get out when I merely ask you to stop swearing? Think about it. And why do you want me to move out? Do you want me gone, Dad? Do you really want me gone? Well, now I don't only feel worthless. I feel... pointless. Why am I here if I'm not wanted? And by "here" I don't just mean in this house.
"You need to take this seriously, Dad. What you do now could affect our entire relationship and our future with each other. If you keep pushing me away, you're going to lose another one of your girls."
I wish I didn't have to do this, but the way he treats me is really tearing me down in every possible way. And I don't want to end up doing something stupid. I just hope he responds in the way that I want him to.
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